a journey in motherhood

Nap time last week was particularly rough and through the weekend it got worse. Friday I didn’t have a minute to myself as Elizabeth didn’t take a morning nap and that meant that they slept at different times. When I don’t get those couple hours when they are sleeping to myself to clean up or read or rest it makes for a tough afternoon. My patience is tried, I feel tired and frusterated. That, and Libby is so mobile that when they are both awake I have to be giving 100% attention to keep them out of trouble. Then Sundays are always tough for naps b/c we get home late from church & by the time they go down they’re over tired and sometimes don’t sleep at all. As you can see in the pic below, Elliot did just that today.

The entire room was covered in baby powder (Fortunately for our lungs it was the cornstarch kind, not talc). It took us quite a while to figure out how to even clean it up. At least he was a hilarious sight and we were able to laugh about it so the 45 minutes devoted to vacuming, wiping, changing sheets, blankets, pillows, etc. was made less annoying by our amusement. The baby powder has been in a cubbard that he’s had access to for months and it never crossed my mind, I’m usually good about keeping things way out of his reach. You can bet I’ll be even better at it from now on.

Today I found out the very best news I possibly could have recieved. Times 2!! My very dear friend found out that after 4.5 years of trying to concieve they are FINALLY pregnant, and my other dear friend found out that they get to adopt their little boy afterall. 

There was a time in my life after losing two pregnancies I had many doubts and wonders about ever becoming a mother. Would God have me be childless? The thought was too much to even handle, it left me breathless in agony. How many more times have these women might have wondered the same? How much longer have they had to wait on God for his answer? How much more then will they even value motherhood? They are both going to be amazing mothers. These children who are right now in a womb, are incredibly blessed. Their parents love them beyond imagination - but what is more, they love Jesus. And their lives are a testament to it. What they’ve endured to this point has made them different, more like Jesus, I believe.

Thank You LORD, for your faithfulness, for not forgetting us even when we feel forgotten, for listening to us when we ask for the same thing over and over and over and over again. Thank you God for blessing these couples with a child of their own. I lift them up, God make them the parents you want them to be, use them and their children to bring glory to Your Holy Name. Praise You!!!