a journey in motherhood

For a long time now I’ve wanted to wake earlier than the rest of the family. To have time to shower, dress and have a cup of coffee before it’s 3:00 in the afternoon and I’m still in my pajamas. Not only that, but to have time to spend with God, reading his word, praying and reflecting…in the calm quiet of the morning hours. I know my husband would like it too, I could get him some toast or something, but also have a few minutes to say hi & I love you rather than mumbling from under my covers as he goes out the door. I think my children will benefit too, as any time quietly away from them usually makes me a better mom when I’m with them. So my plan is starting tomorrow I will wake each morning at 6:30 a.m. YIKES. This isn’t the first time I’ve tried it … but I’m determined to try again. That’s partly why I’m writing it here and telling friends - really if you think of it PRAY for me to be able to do this. That also means that I want to do what I can to be asleep by 10:30 most evenings. I know that will have to be flexible, but it’s a goal. BUT my wake time will not be determined by my bed time. 6:30 NO MATTER WHAT. It is realistic - afterall for four years I was on a bus to LA at 5:30am. I’m trying to think about it in the terms of: this is when my job starts. I’m looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time.